I'm terrified to let myself orgasm?

I used to be sortof self concious like that myself, well... one, pee before you know you might do it, and also, just let it happen. Trust me. just go with it, youll enjoy it, and then sooner or later, thats exactly what youll want to happen (an orgasm) and youll feel less self consious and paranoid about that. Plus, guys love that.. ALOT, it makes them feel better about themselves